promise

i will promise myself wont talk much and wont be a clown in front of u guys

我对不起你

我真的不应把我和别人吵架的事
牵涉到我们之中
虽然对不起是没用的一句话
可是我还是要说
对不起
对不起
对不起
现在的我真的很不开心
好想有你在身边
可是没可能的
我知道我们一定会吵架的
我是个怎样的人我知道
每天只会无理取闹
有多少人能受得到？
我真的很累
我很不开心
有谁会明白
没人明白的啦

第二章（开始了的旅程）

开始旅程的第一天的那个晚上
他的housemate回来了
他也静静的
没说话
没看戏
对着电脑玩minigame
就连wifi password 也不敢问
到最后他的housemate也告诉了他
之后他也就静静的facebook而已
更加好笑的事
他的housemate就坐在他隔壁而已
他既然和他的housemate用facebook chat
之后他的housemate也帮了他很多
劝他别害羞这些的
好好笑哦
就这样的认识了
到了晚上要睡的时候
他想家他想起以前在家乡的朋友
泪还是留了出来
他怕遇到困难的事还是人家和他说他听不懂的火星语
可是他也很懒惰没想过要勤劳点最追回以前的东西
不知不觉他睡着了
。。。。
。。。。to be continue

第一章

有一个来自乡村的小孩
有一天他来到了一个城市
突然觉得很陌生的他
没有了朋友的他又重新开始了
英文也不会一句的他
既然学人说起英文了
可是第一次人家问他 what is your name的时候
他回答说zac
可是那人却听到是jeff
从此他就把名字换成了jeff
不过他还蛮喜欢的
这旅程也从这开始了
。。。。。。。
。。。。。。
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。。。。。

爱人篇

其实还真的蛮开心每当和你在一起时
每天晚上都会想你
等你电话和信息
有时我还会想到我会配不起你吗？
在我眼里你是比我好的
所以我会担心
我对自己是真的很没信心的
以前的我是超有的
只是现在我collage的死党都说我不帅
搞得我没信心
不过对我来说都不重要啦
帅与不帅就只是一线之差
因为我不帅就分的话这感情也不重要啦
也不必挽留些什么
我真的很开心在那3天和你在一起时
回的时候真的很不舍得
眼角还有些泪
你和我说你要meet你朋友不过我是不会生气的
现在的我很信任你
我希望能一直这样下去
大家都不会有猜疑
我信你也会想什么事能做什么事不能做
晚安咯！！
明天继续
to be continue
!!!

后悔？

说真的我也是被逼的
你对我的好我是感受到
可是很多东西你都没发现到
我到现在不知道还有没有爱你
我也是在混乱之中
我决定了
我要去找他看到底我有没有喜欢他
我是真的很对不起你
大家都有错
我让不到你又不让
很乱
心里还是哭了
因为没人能了解我
我会会想念你
b不知道为什么

....

我真的不知如何是好
我是真的对你有好感
可是我们真的不能够在一起
我不知你在想什么
我很怕受伤害
没胆再去爱
我们是没结局的
你在做什么我不知道
你说你不会骗我
我信你的话可是心还是会有猜疑
我真的很烦
又不知要怎么做好

i donnot wanna miss a thing

i could stay awake just to hear you breathing
Watch you smile while you are sleeping
While you're far away and dreaming
I could spend my life in this sweet surrender
I could stay lost in this moment forever
Every moment spent with you is a moment I treasure
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Lying close to you feeling your heart beating
And I'm wondering what you're dreaming
Wondering if it's me you're seeing
Then I kiss your eyes and thank God we're together
And I just wanna stay with you
In this moment forever, forever and ever
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna miss one smile
I don't wanna miss one kiss
Well, I just wanna be with you
Right here with you, just like this
I just wanna hold you close
Feel your heart so close to mine
And stay here in this moment
For all the rest of time
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
'Cause I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
I don't wanna close my eyes
I don't wanna fall asleep
'Cause I'd miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
'Cause even when I dream of you
The sweetest dream will never do
I'd still miss you, baby
And I don't wanna miss a thing
Don't wanna close my eyes
Don't wanna fall asleep, yeah
I don't wanna miss a thing

why

pls
don ask me y
and called me to forgive him
i wont do tat but if he understand
and happy festival mooncake
haha
but
i'm alone in this year happy mooncake festival
i'm feel lonely
but is freedom
i can sleep watever i can
i can do anything i can
i just copy form someone
i hate u
dam u
better die

CARE

I KNOW I VERY CARE ABOUT U RITE NOW
BECOSE I FRIEND WITH U BEFORE
BUT AFTER TAT I WONT CARE ABOUT U
AND U BETTER DO IT EVERYTHING CAREFULLY
U BETTER BE
EVERYTHING WAS TOO LATE

BULLSHIT

WAT A BULLSHIT THING
EVERYDAY SAY U UNDERSTAND BUT I DONT THINK SO
U BETTER TO DIE OR WHATEVER
ALIVE WITHOUT FRIEND
FUK U SO MUCH
IF I CAN
DAM U
I WILL DO IT AS FAST AS POSSIBLE
DAM U
IF I CAN KILL U
U BETTER TO HELL OR SUCIDE URSELF
FUK

always smile

something like i cant forgive u anymore
cose i'm realy get hurt form u
izzit u will happy when u hurt me
if u feel happy then u better do it everyday
i hate u so mcuh
HATE U
what should i do
y can tell me y???
i wan to quit but 2 time i also stay cose of u
but i get wat??
get hurt
FUK U
BITCH
BETTER DIE

Time

好久没update了
其实都很多东西写但是写了也不能改变结局
或许能改变结局就好这些都是自我安慰的话
每个人都有自己的梦想
可是我的梦想是什么？
就连我自己也不知道
很多人都认为我没心事是个开心的人
但是我不觉得
因为我都没把我讨厌的东西表露出来
最近他真的变了很多
看到他一次就觉得为什么会这样
算了吧
来这里读书认识到的朋友全部都和我hometown的朋友差很多
他们很多都是为了利益而和你做朋友
不然就是所谓的钱
钱真的有那么重要吗？
我不想有这种
在这里真心的有几个
我察觉不到
不过我真的很想不要和人说话
可是我做不到该死的我
加油加油

finally

终于都做了我想做的
我轻松了。。

Friend

i don have friend anymore

ZZZzZZzzz

just now my mum was called me and told me tonight had two moon same time at the sky
i was so excited ....
haha
two moons i'm cuming
haha
Next Monday we go to Ahlohah
wow
it is amazing
haha
we can count down
haha

hehe

i wan to be a gay
hehe
i think tat is better to me
hoho

Actually

this saturday is going to a talk
maybe i will attend the job
i wan try to earn money and a lot of thing to myself
i wan to be strong and i don wan be an exhausted soilder....
i wan continue to fight and i wont throw my inspiring flag away and collapse
cambate!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
i wan to wake up early!!!
becouse nid to continue my time table for increase my weight
hoho!!
tomorrow nid to go inside kitchen it is exciting
i must pay attention at study
don think too much
don worry about what they saying
i don wan go b
to just being one half of the question
every kiss that u give
jealous females hate it
i know tat
it's amazing how u can speak rite to my heart
without saying a word u can light up the dark
try as i may i can never explain
don wan like child anymore
and it's time to sleep
good nite
^^

BAd

actually i lost all my thing....
and i don have confidence anymore...
how i can i get it b ??
someone is helping me??
y i still wan to think too much??
can i refresh my mind and delete all the thing
i don wan be a troubles man anymore
sometimes i will look down myself becose
i'm not handsome at all i also cant do anything for this world
i'm not match be a human being
GOD izzit u'r fair to each other
when i was sing in front my friend i also will be shy
donno y before i wont shy
izzit my voice will broke???
GOD if u'r fair pls let me find b my confisende
T.T
i wan all it b
actually i cant lose
but i try to force myself
it was hard to me
haizZZzz
disappointed for myself
dam shit
fuk off
i wan go b my hometown and find b my confidence
where is it??
plsssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssssss
i don wan
is not fair to me
i don wan to face each other
i was ady tired
TIRED
I always remember how was the tired word
i cant found my love
i cant found my future
i cant found my money
i cant found my appearance
always i cant when i can i change to be i can??????
where am i?
i wan me to be there!!!
i wan shout out all my thing
study study study and study
i will try to don think too much
i'm not a gay y all the guy say he love me??
izzit my appearance look like gay????
pls fair to me
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!
OMG!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

SECond day

wow it was tired
how was i do...
huh.....

SEM2

izzit i wan to continue?
or i nid to singapore ??
or???
or???
y so many question in my mind?
just past the sem1
izzit inid to coontinue???
tel me why why why
so many question?

UNhappy!!!!!!!!!!!!

i was ady tired!!!!!!!!
can i be strong or brave??
what should i do rite now...
从前有那三个字 天天讲你知
虽然没新意 但有意思
我储埋储埋这么多诗句
我只想你跟我一起笑
。。。。。。
。。。。。
。。。。。
i love this song
title >三个字<
i wan start to save money
don wan waste my mum money
cose i know earn money is very difficult
and i know my mum save money to me and she cant go to travel
i'm miss u mum
i'm so sorry
but i cant focus on study
pls forgive me
mother i love u
when i think about u
my eye was fill with water
i cant control myself
i'm look strong but absolutely not
if i can sleep until don wake up
i will be happy
be a human being is hard to me
and gud nite

原来我这么的渺小

其实我有真心朋友吗？
我真的累了。。。
不过从现在开始我会做回我自己。。。
不会在婆一些我不喜欢的人了。。。
我真的累了。。。
我要搬回自己的宿舍住。。。
不想再过去那了。。。
现在我不会再像以前这样。。
我要静静。。
不要想太多了。。。
不过我知道有一个人是真的关心我。。
我真的要谢谢他
谢谢
我想说我不会做作了。。。
我会加油的

Nothing to do

izzit wan continue ???
someone help me??
just can keep my finger closed .....
just need somebody to love...
i know tat was a hard thing...
 wat should i do....
teach me.....

Home

finally i cam b form KL..
compare hometown and KL i think hometown is better then KL...
actually is a bit  bored at my hometown but it was complecated....
haha
cambate
still confuse
wan join orientation or not
haiz

semester 1

one semester was ady over...
4month was not long but not short too....
a lot of things tat happened during this semester...
grown me up to became stronger in friendship, love, and knowledge....
i hope the exam can passed...
collage life was a little bit different compare to high school...
and i try to increase my weight but was hard and passible....
and i try to searched a girlfriend but it was a big challenge...
i knew a lot of friends and they were nice , friendly and kindly....
i still can remember when i first step in this collage...
let me feel stress and pressure....
because i heard everyone spoke in English ...
and i never spoke before...
next semester i need to took EAP...
it was challenge me...
i think my English level just reach till intermediate...
many of my friends turn to be a couple...
i was admire them....
it was complicated...

HoMetWoN

2 more day is going b to my hometown... is waiting haha >.<
妈咪妈咪
我回来了咯
好想见到你
好想吃到你煮的菜
我星期五就回了咯
好想好想去orientation哦
可是不能要回hometown了
加油！！！

怎么办？

我的心开始越来越痛了
要去见见医生了
旧病复发
好痛
郁闷

T.T

quite tired
oH my god...
cant speak anything
oh my god
exam exam exam

Good morning

Good morning but i think now is afternoon i just wake up so consider is morning
haha
is so stressful and rush for my exam
what should i do
hey is moody
dam worst
haven enjoy my breakfast and lunch
so hungry
oh no!!

夜深了

我对你真的彻底失望
你当初都不是这个样的
你为什么会变这样
或许我留下来是个错误的选择
你还说你会伤心
真的吗？
自从昨天那件事后
你知道我很生气你吗？
做了不承认的人还要赖我
我最最讨厌这些人
你还和我说你要改变对我们一切的东西
你自己想下是谁的错
虽然他每次说你像AH GUA
他也是开玩笑的阿
虽然是过分了
这也是他的错
可是毕竟你和他还要相处两年啊
有时真不知道你在想什么
不过算了啦
你在我生命中并不重要
我不会因为一点小事而生气的
你只是我两年里的过客
原来友情就只有这样而已
我是绝对不会把爱情友情看得重了
朋友是拿来利用的我明白这个了
还说要搬出去一起住
没这个可能了
这样喜欢变就变吧
没人会挽留你的
我会说这些话你看了你知己反省下吧

Exam

Exam is cuming
is gonna to die
help me a
computer beverage intro and kitchen
ahh....
so hard a
cant memorise
dam shit
what dam noob life
so bored
no intrested at all
haiZZzzz

无助的时候

在每当我无助的时候都好想看到你....
看到你时都会逼自己去弄你生气你...
让你讨厌我...或许我已经成功了....
其实我们在之前就能很开心地在一起了...
可是我为了友情而放弃了你.....
我没说出来是因为我不想让你知道....
可是一切都太迟了.....
不过只要你幸福就好....
我爱你并不需要在一起....
你幸福就好....
你知道我爱你就好...
这都有可能是以前犯下的错吧！！
我玩弄过女生真的很对不起....
我都知道我不应该这样做....
都被朋友骂了还是继续真是活该的我....
现在读书最重要....
就让时间冲走一切吧...